for a long time now i’ve heard all about it in news but now i’m seeing it happen all around me and it sucks. i’ve seen it in movies and i never understood that pain the characters go through until now. i’ve always wanted to be in a movie, but dang do i want out. its not even happening directly to me, yet it hurts; i can’t even begin to imagine the feeling of hopelessness and depression that shows in their tears. i am so sorry and i wish so badly that i could help. you’ve all created a culture here, a family that i’m still very new to, so its been hard to say the right things and know how to react. as i quietly tend to my tasks i feel engulfed by an awkward bubble. right in front me is someone hurting and i can’t do a thing about it. i attend all the emergency meetings for damage control and just want to leave. i see the faces, the smiles of these brilliant and wonderful people that have made my experience here unforgettable… gone. this sucks.
I don’t want to sound selfish, believe me. But what you do hurts me. I’m not all-knowing but I know the advice and all the encouragement I’ve given you over the years has been in the right direction. This path you’ve taken is offensive. Its as if what I said was wrong; as if it didn’t matter. AS IF THE PEOPLE THAT TRUELY CARE ABOUT YOU DON’T MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU. The saddest part of all is that you know what you do is dumb. What you do hurts me… hurts us.
so SHUT up. WISE up. please LISTEN up. be the better person i know you are.